At some point last fall I put out into the universe that I wanted some new ink before the year was up.
I knew if I did that someone out there would ask me about it and I'd sort of be forced to follow through. So while I was sort of still on the fence about it, I put it out there to hold myself accountable. That turned out to be a really good thing.

Wanting another tattoo didn't just come out of nowhere, I've had it on my brain for quite some time. In fact my IG friend Heidi drew me up a design that I was smitten with about a year or so ago and it's been sitting on my Pinterest board ever since. My commitment phobia issues start to arise when I think about tattooing and even though I have four others, with the exception of the first two, they were years apart. But in my mind I have delusions? visions of being this tattooed writing mama and it kind of scares me because I don't know anybody personally like that but it also excites me. I like the idea of being 'other' a bit. Even though tattoos are more culturally normative now than they were years ago and you're more likely to find more than one mom with some hidden ink in the parking lot. Actually you're apt to find a LOT of mamas with visible ink these days. And I'm all for that.


So here it was November and I was into my feelings and just typed it out before I even thought it through. And now that it was out there, I was going to be held to it. Before I could think on it too much on it my spiritual sista Michelle reminded me of her friend Sarah who does tattoos. A female tattoo artist? Yes please? I'm in a place of really wanting to be surrounded by positive female energy and Michelle is basically that personified, so when she said Sarah was cool, I was down. I already had an idea of the tattoo in my head. I was going through a thang and a phrase was turning over and over in my head and I knew without a doubt I had to make this happen. So I reached out to Sarah and immediately fell in love with her energy over IM. I sent her the rough ideas I had and she immediately responded with a date. WITHIN THE NEXT WEEK. Oh. Um. Wow. Okay. That was much sooner than expected. I was thinking I'd have at least a few weeks to hem and haw about it but nope. Sarah was just like, Let me know when you're ready. which was just what I needed. So I sat on it for a week and then set up the appointment.

I didn't say a word but to maybe three people. That was hard for me. But it was something I had to do and I didn't want anyone to try and talk me out of it or raise an eyebrow at my design idea.
The drive down was nerve wracking to say the least. I was a little bit scurred as it's been almost a decade since I got my last tattoo. And that hurt like a mother bear. So yeah. Nerves. But then I got to Sarah's shop and her vibe is so chill and inviting and it smelled nice and I immediately felt at ease.  We fell into easy conversation as I pulled up my inspiration images and she went to sketching out the design. Soon it was time and she set up all her equipment and explained everything she was doing and how she would be going about tattooing my skin. I was excited while my heart was beating out of my chest so naturally I took some pics and posted them because comfort.


The initial prick was painful but not more than I could handle, I've had two c-sections so this was not so bad but still. But after awhile the pain went away and I spent the rest of the time trying to text left handed and figure out what I was going to eat for lunch.

Before I knew it she was done and we were both admiring her handiwork. As she snapped a few photos for her portfolio she asked if she could add a little more detail and I said sure. It's her art after all. So she quickly set me back up and refined the feathers. We snapped a few more pics, she wrapped me up, we hugged and I went on about my day with a bit of a skip in my step.
I ran by my dad's house for paper towels (don't judge he over buys) and couldn't wait to show off my new ink. He didn't even bat an eye other than to ask what my husband thought. I replied I hadn't showed him yet.( he actually first laid eyes on it on Instagram) and then I went to pick up my kids from school. Typical Wednesday.

Except it wasn't. Everything about this experience was sort of magical in that it all just fell into place. I started thinking on my design and fell in love with the feather pen and the idea of it writing and it Sarah brought it to life. It's incredibly feminine and exactly what I had in mind. I already told her I want her to do my next one some time in the next month or so. Because yeah, they are addicting but I've had this on my brain for a long long time. It's finally time I started acting on the things I dream about.

How do you feel about moms with visible tattoos? Do you have any tattoos?
Also, if you're local to So Cal and looking to get inked do yourself a favor and check out Sarah at CareCosmedic. She truly is a talented soul. 


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