Funny how that is also true with my writing. It's December, Christmas is in exactly a week and I am pooped. I have a million and one things I NEED/ SHOULD be doing. My toddler has decided it would be fun to wake up and chat no less than twice a night (in the wee morning hours) and I haven't been as diligent about getting to bed on time so I'm a TON of fun in the morning. I have deadlines for work and getting things done around the house and all I want to do is zone out, surf the internet and nap.
But for some reason, I keep hearing a voice say "Finish strong Amber. You got this."
I want to give up, go into hibernation and then hate myself for doing so but there is something in me that is pushing me to do/be better. To finish the year strong, the same way I began. I've hit several goals I set for myself early on this year and some I haven't even begun to chip away at. But I know that in order to get there, indeed I do need to finish strong.
There is something to be said about setting the bar high and hitting your expectations for yourself. For years I set it lower than it should be and just did the bare minimum. Just enough to get by and keep me slightly motivated but not enough to really reach for my biggest dreams. I was scared for some reason.
Somewhere along the way I became complacent. Odd for someone who spent 6 years of her life as a high jumper and setting the bar higher and higher each season was something I thrived on. Something I excelled at even.
I'm trying to get back into incorporating that mindset into my everyday life. My goal for the next two weeks is to indeed finish up strong and positive. I've already got mad ideas flowing through my head for 2014 and I just KNOW it's going to be amazing in so many ways.
I am truly looking forward to the break from everyday schedules and carpooling and while I'm giving myself a little leeway to slack off a bit, I know that under the surface there will be ideas a brewing and things that need to be said and addressed so yeah, there will be posts here and there but really I just want to remain focused on my dream. Be as excited about my trajectory in the waning weeks of the year as I was in the beginning. That's always been hard for me as a creative because I get SO excited about the next idea/thing/object that I become easily distracted. Wrangling the Tiny Tornado doesn't help because he wears.me.OUT. But he also spurs me on to do more. It is in spending time with my children and my lover that I get my best ideas , albeit they come at the most inopportune times (cooking dinner, bath + story time) but they are there. So long as I commit to addressing them and not pushing it aside because I'm "busy" I know I'll be just fine.
So bring it on end of 2013, I'm so ready for you and excited about what is yet to come.
Let's all finish the year strong and not be too hard on ourselves if things don't go as planned. Just remain focused on your goals and you'll be alright.
At least, that's what I'm telling myself.
How do you plan to finish strong? Are you like me and tend to slack off towards the end? How do you stay focused?