Wednesday, February 29, 2012

Digital Decade

What a difference a decade makes!
Sweet Pea's birth and Carson's birth story could not be more different.
Obviously this time we pretty much knew what to expect but it was still interesting to note the changes in procedure over the past few years.
I distinctly remember hanging out in recovery with D &Sweet Pea waiting for the feeling to return to my legs, trying to nurse her and the nurses letting my brother into the room. AWKWARD.
 I also remember D leaving the hospital to run home for whatever reason and then taking forever to come back as he had to download the photos from the biggest digital camera ever and since we had a dial up internet connection it took a long time.
Seems like a lifetime ago.
This time around we were armed and ready with every piece of technology we own. 
I was sitting in the room prior to surgery with my phone, iPad and the camera.

"Checking in" at the hospital on FB so everyone would be aware of what was going on that day.
We had the iPod at the ready for our post baby chill session.
 The anesthesiologist had music playong throughout the surgery (Bossa Nova to be exact) and when it was all said and done he came over and showed me the artists name, turns out he'd been using his iPhone the whole time.
After the baby was born we spent the first hour sending text messages & photos to friends and family near and far. 
It was pretty awesome to have that kind of instant gratification.
Over the weekend I had Sweet Pea pull out one of my photo albums to compare baby pictures of her to how her brother looks (totally twins by the way).
baby Carson

Baby Camryn

I was kind of bummed that I hadn't put more of them in an album even though I know I have a ton more but as this was the cusp of digital photo technology so we have more photos stored on the hard drive than we do in the album. 
Kind of weird when you think about it.
A lot has happened in the last 10 years.
Yesterday I utilized the wonderful FaceTime feature on my iPad to call my brother in Atlanta.
He is currently in grad school and couldn't make it out for the birth. But with this nifty invention he was able to see his new nephew in real time and chat with his niece. It was pretty awesome I must say.
I was able to show him the subway art I made so he could see if he wanted one for his own house and it was nice to see his face while talking to him.
My BFF Michelle is here for a visit (her sister had a baby the same day I did) and she used the iPad to face time with her kids & hubby back in Connecticut. 
It was kind of rad to see them as I haven't in a while and to get to hear there sweet little voices as well.
Technology is awesome.
The ability to instantly share moments of joy with loved ones both near and far is quite wondrous.
I finally feel as though I'm living in the age of the Jetsons. Talking to family via a handheld device? Check. Sharing information the world over via one platform (Facebook)? Check.
This has got my mind blown.
I can't wait to see where the world goes but I'm a little nervous too. 
How will I keep up with all the cool new gadgets and gizmos? 
I can barely keep up as it is now!

Have the advances in technology had a profound effect on your life in any way?

Tuesday, February 28, 2012

He's Here and he has a name!!!!!

Baby Ninja has arrived!!!

Carson Riley Dorsey
Monday February 20, 2012

We are over the moon to finally meet him and have been in a state of bliss ever since.
Thanks for all the well wishes, prayers and thoughts sent our way.

More on the birth story later.......

Sunday, February 19, 2012

Final Countdown

Well we are in the home stretch. The final days of this pregnancy as we go in to the hospital bright and early tomorrow morning to meet our little man.
I am so excited/nervous/ready/littlebitpanicky/tired!
I have a myriad of emotions running through me right now.
And I still have things to do around the house.
Fortunately I have an awesome husband who went off to run my errands this morning (sent him for modge podge. Ha! we'll see how that goes) so I could sort some laundry for the rest of the week.
I am in quite the tither as I have no control over how this week will play out for Sweet Pea and him and that makes me nervous but I know I need to let it go.
We've had a lovely last weekend as a trio.
Friday we went to Fatburger and a late movie.
Yesterday we drove to L.A. where he dropped me off at a chic little cafe for a Bridal Shower for my god-sister.
I am so excited about her upcoming nuptials and was happy to have been able to make it.
 Just in time! I pretty much rolled into the shower but it was so nice to be surrounded by familiar faces and so much love for her.
All of my favorite ladies were there and wishing not only her luck and love, but us as well.
We then hung out w/ my father-in-law for a bit before heading home.
And today, well ,we're going to putter around here finish up a few projects; because who starts a project at 39 weeks pregnant days before they deliver? I do!!
custom subway art

city subway art
We'll just take it easy (my definition of easy) while we wait it out until it's time to head to the hospital.
I am definitely ready for this next chapter in our lives to begin.
We finally finished (like really and truly finished) the nursery and it makes me happy to just sit in there and rock in the chair when I can't sleep.

I'm kind of in love with how it all turned out.
I dig that its so "us" color & style wise.
Clean lines with pops of color.
I painted all the wall decor so if it looks slightly "off" you can blame me.
I'm not a perfect artist but there is love in each of those pieces.
The garlands are leftover decor from the baby shower and that makes me happy to re-cycle something from a party for him and be able to use it in his room.
We have been so blessed by family, friends and co-workers throughout all of this.
I had lunch w/ Babe and a few of his co-workers on Friday, they are hilarious and were super supportive and excited about the baby.
They presented us with a cute little bag of clothing (that happens to contain his going home outfit) and then he went back to work only to discover they had also planned a "baby shower" of sorts for him there.
His whole department signed a card and chipped in on a gift card for the little man.
How helpful is that?!!
They also got me some flowers and balloons.
It just made my heart happy to see/ feel all that love.
So- if I'm not around for awhile you know why.
I'll be busy basking in the glow of new babyhood, but will be back soon with pictures and a name update.
In the meantime, please say a prayer that all goes smoothly tomorrow and pray for our week as well.

Thursday, February 16, 2012

Juggling Act

I had a few hours of downtime today so I chose to rent myself a movie and relax on the couch while Sweet Pea napped upstairs.
This may be the last time for awhile that I have a few solid hours of nothing-ness so I wanted to take full advantage of the time.
I rented "I Don't Know How She Does It"  and I must say I thoroughly enjoyed it.
I know it wasn't critically acclaimed and all that but to me, a working mom, it made total sense.
There were so many moments in the movie that I could personally relate to and it brought a lot of unspoken feelings to light.
There is always that sense of letting someone down when you work full time and have a family.
Men just simply don't have the same kind of guilt that women do.
I was trying to explain it to my husband when he got home and I think he understood, to a certain extent.
It's all a juggling act.
One that I can honestly say I've struggled with over the years.
I've made some very tough decisions since becoming a mother 10 years ago.
Not working for 2 years , then coming back to the work force and playing catch up.
Letting my baby live with her father during the week while we were broken up so that I could focus solely on her on the weekends.
Feeling like I missed milestones because I wasn't home to put her to bed every night.
Then making the random decision to quit working, go to school full time and be a SAHM (sort of)
Being able to be a "room mom" and struggling to make ends meet financially.
Loving being home with her but wrestling with my identity as a "woman of the world" at the same time.
Wanting her to see me as more than 'just her mom who stays at home' but still wanting her to understand how important that is as well.
I've spent the last 7+ years in a state of conflict.
So yes, I could totally identify with Kate.
She LOVED her job and was quite good at it.
She also was completely devoted to her family and that was just as important.
Juggling the two became a full time job in and of itself and somehow someway, a few things fell through the cracks.
I think we've all been there. 
Grabbing treats at the last minute because we forgot about the class party/ bake sale, running out of work as soon as possible because we promised we'd make it home in time for baths and stories.
There are so many ways we feel like we are failing in some area that it's a wonder we can maintain any level of sanity at all.
That's one of the reasons I was put on early maternity leave - I was failing at all things miserably and panicking about it all.
It was no bueno.
But I guess I was putting up a good front because I would often hear "I don't know how you do it" from co-workers and friends after sharing about the dinner I made, the craft Sweet Pea and I worked on or the crazy work day I'd had.
I would simply shake my head and say "me either. We just make it work"
And we did. Somehow.
It wasn't perfect and there were days when I realized I had no plan for dinner and had to pull a rabbit out of my hat, or that I'd forgotten to take care of birthday gift for one of Sweet Pea's friends.
Or even days when I didn't have the energy to sit with my husband at the end of the night and ask about his day. 
Catch up on his life and see how WE were doing.
But we muddled through.
I'm not sure what will do once my maternity leave is up and I am scheduled to go back to work.
I know we could use the added income.
Babe hasn't conquered the whole of Business Banking just yet.
How will we manage with a newborn and a 10 year-old?
I don't have a clue
I do know that I'm going to savor the moments that I am at home and enjoy the days when my Sweet Pea wants to spend time with me.
For all too soon she will be an ornery teenager with much better things to do than craft with her mom.
She had to do a free writing exercise at school and hers was simply titled My Mom
The reason I am writing about my mom is because she is amazing.
My mom is very nice and when I need help with something she'll help me.
Whenever she bakes she lets me taste the batter.
Also, when she makes a craft she asks me to help her.
This is why my mom is my hero and the best mom ever.
She got an A.
Of course I cried when I read it.
It really hit me right then, she sees what I'm doing and she appreciates it.
And that makes it all worthwhile.

Tuesday, February 14, 2012

My Funny Valentine

This time next week I'll have a new baby in my arms instead of my iPad propped up in my lap.
I will be exhausted and sore and desperately wanting the solace of my home & my bed.
I will no longer feel the random and sporadic movements in my stomach of a little boy trying to get comfortable. I will be able to kiss the feet that have been kicking me in my side and squeeze the cheeks that I have been dreaming about.
People keep asking if we're reedy and I comeback with some self deprecating smart ass retort about how good it will feel to not have a pumpkin sitting on my abdomen.
 In theory, yes. We are absolutely ready. Bags are packed, car seat installed and clothing and room are organized.
In truth, we have no idea what we are in for.
Yeah we've done this before but 10 years is a long time and who kows what this child will be like. 
We can't predict how he will react to his new environment. We can't predict how Sweet Pea will feel once he's really here. 
She may not be all that thrilled in reality. Like both of us she is both excited and nervous about what is to come.
All I know is that in 7 days our lives will have changed forever yet again.
We have no idea what the future has in store but our goal is to enjoy every minute of it.
I can't wait to see what happens next.
Stay tuned.

Side note: My husband is rad and totally surprised me with roses and a GINORMOUS balloon last night in honor of Valentine's day.
He even put them in a vase for me as I was on the phone and too distracted to be bothered at the moment.
I wasn't keen on doing a whole lot because I am great with child and moving so slow, I just want to be still and savor this time.
I love that he still surprises me after all this time and just makes an effort.......swoon.
I chose wisely.

Monday, February 13, 2012

Music Minded Monday

Like most of the world I was shocked to hear of the passing of the incomparable Whitney Houston on Saturday.
The timing was very eerie being that she was in town for Sunday evenings Grammy's and ended up dying only a day before the festivities really began.
I had to double and triple check the sources as people tend to "die" daily on the Internet/social media.
I was keen to tune into the Grammy's to see how the recording industry would react and handle the situation. It was quite interesting to see the many reactions to the loss. Most of us who are over the age of 30 grew up listening to Whitney and are probably not as shocked that her life ended the way it did. We remember how she was "before Bobby" and how she was after him. Her most infamous interview with Diane Sawyer in which she proclaimed that "crack was cheap" and most famously "crack is whack". We saw the downward spiral from being the industry's golden girl to a punch line for late night talk show hosts.
Despite all of those things it seemed we all had high hopes for her 'comeback'and loved to see her hit the stage and defy all the odds. But this will no longer be the case. That voice, her angelic soprano that captivated so many is gone from this earth. Gone in spirit but not forgotten. No, never forgotten.
So we sat down as a family to watch the show and were delighted by quite a few of the
performances. My mother in law was over and she was able to appreciate some of the more 'old school' acts. Meanwhile Sweet Pea was very much looking forward to Adele's performance.
And truly so was I.
 I must say that she (Adele) had the best performance of the night hands down. 
Considering the fact that she had major surgery late last year and this was her first performance since then, she knocked it out of the park. Her voice is magic.
 Top that off with winning both record and album of the year and it was a stellar night for her.
I sat back and thought how cool it was to be able to have 3 separate generations sit down and watch a music show together. Yes I let my almost 10 year old stay up for the whole show. Judge me of you like but music is a huge part of our household and we think it's important she be exposed to a variety of genres. It's also kind of cool to go down memory lane as she inquiries about who certain presenters and performers are. She is watching history live in the making most of the time and I dig that we can share that with her and educate her on a few things at the same time.
We also watched the pre-show special with Anderson Cooper and Adele and I loved what she had to say about 'peer pressure' as it were.
"I don't look at a magazines and music videos and think, 'Oh I need to look like that to sell records and make a name for myself'. I'd never want to be a skinny mini with my t**** out and think that's what makes me great".
Hear hear sister!
 In a day and age where "celebrities" are known more for what they are wearing and their bodies than their actual talent this was highly comforting and appropriate.
And what a great message to young girls!!
While the show did seem to drag on a bit it was still overall a pretty good one.
 No stellar collaborations but the quality of showmanship was definitely apparent and I appreciate that as a music lover.
While the world and the music industry mourns the loss of a legend at least we were left with a show that honored music and it's long history in the world.
It may not have been the greatest show ever, but in the end, that's really all we can ask for. 

Friday, February 10, 2012

Home is where the heart is

I have an unnatural obsession with watching House Hunters on HGTV.
I fully admit it and it's gotten so bad I have both Sweet Pea and Babe hooked on it as well.
Babe and I can never get over how people can't get past aesthetics (paint, counter tops, tile etc.) and see the bigger picture of what the house could be.
Sweet Pea is just as nosy as her mama and likes looking at other peoples houses and voting on which one they should choose.
We also can't get over the actual prices of some of these homes.
A woman in Nashville bought a home for $153,000 ; another family in Austin, TX got a 4 bedroom for $225K. It was listed at $255K. And it took them forever to decide, meanwhile D and I are screaming at the t.v. to pick that one as it had all the upgrades they wanted while still being in a great location.
How can these people not realize it's not necessarily what the house looks like now, but really about what you make it?
Home is where the heart is right?
That got us to talking about our own home buying future.
I think I've mentioned before that we rent.
And we LOVE where we live. 
By that I mean the neighborhood/community. 
The schools are great and in close proximity and we have a fun little shopping area that makes it a great place for families and even date nights!
Our current house is cool and has worked for us for the past 3 years and was such a blessing to find at exactly the right time. 
But we both know that we will have outgrown it by the end of this year.
With the addition of Baby Ninja we are now at maximum living capacity and I know there are many changes we'd both like to make but because it's not "our place" we are quite limited.
So what to do?
Ideally we would like to buy a place of our own but at this point are not sure how all that will work out.
I have delusions of grandeur when driving around our community but the reality of it all is that I don't require a brand new house with all the upgrades.
I'm totally okay with some D.I.Y. projects. 
In fact I would prefer it - simply because that would be us putting our stamp on the house and truly making it our own.
And I watch enough HGTV, read enough blog tutorials and have pinned enough images to make me think I can tackle anything.
See- delusions of grandeur.
I know that right now I should be focused on my new baby and how that's going to affect things but in order to cope with that, my mind is fast forwarding to the future and how we will really and truly live our lives as a family of four.
Do we need four bedrooms? What kind of backyard?
Should there be a view of some sort?
What about the closets?
There are so many variables to consider but I am going to be patient and just wait and see what the Lord has in store for us.
I'm not seriously worried right now about how things will turn out.
I have this unwavering faith that all will be well and the right house will be revealed to us when the time is right, if buying is what we are supposed to do.
But in the meantime - I will gather my ideas/pins and make dream boards so that when it all comes together I have the perfect collection of projects, decor and the like.
Here are a few of my favorites:

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Do you see a recurring theme? I am totally obsessed with grey right now (hence the nursery walls)
and have realized how it's the perfect neutral with which to pair my pops of color!
And I think it would be much safer to have a darker color with a toddler around!!
I've also realized that my decor style is very much modern eclectic.
I love clean lines but require soft, comfortable pieces with punches of color all around.
So that's a small part of my vision for now- but that's just one room!!
Imagine all that I could do in a space that offers me the freedom to change it up as I please?!!
Do me a favor and say a prayer for us that we are able to figure out our next step in the house hunters game? It would mean a lot.

What made you choose your first/current home?
What's your decorating style?

Thursday, February 9, 2012

Featured Writer

Hey y'all!
Do me a favor and head over to the today where I'm a featured writer!!

Leave me a comment and let me know what you think!
How do you feel about daytime TV now that Oprah's out of the picture?

Monday, February 6, 2012

Baby Ninja Lovin

Whew! I am one pooped mama!
We were blessed enough to have been given a baby shower this weekend at my father-in-law's house hosted by my mother and sisters in love and my mother.
It was family craziness all day Saturday and we are so blessed to have so many who love us in this kiddo's life!

me & my mom

me & my daddy

 Sweet Pea got a fair amount of 'big sister' gifts too which just about melted my heart.
They were all perfectly tailored to her - and to our activities (baking..etc) so it meant a lot to both D and I that people thought of her too.
I also got a lovely "mommy gift" from my godmother of relaxing/soothing lotions and balms to help me chill out both now and postpartum.
my godmother, my mother-in-love, mom's friend and my mom
I was super jazzed as I got to utilize my Pinterest skills for creating some decorations and was happy to see how they turned out and to put my creativity and late night pinning obsession to good use!

Unfortunately I slipped on one of the steps by the pool and seem to have done sprained my toe or something as its a bit swollen and painful.
Upside is I was able to bust out some of my new favorite eyelashes that I purchased awhile back and they looked fabulous with my fun dress from Vestique.
me & baby ninja
 Our whole family chipped in and helped out with all the yummy food (taco cart, 3ft burrito & enchiladas), drinks and desserts (cupcake tower!) so it was an all day affair.
cupcake tower courtesy cousin Jodi!

fancy cake
custom cake pops

We got some great things for Baby Ninja and enjoyed a lot of laughs with all of our favorite people.

all the Dorsey "kids" w/ their dad
Thank you so much to everyone who came out to celebrate our little man and who took the time to contribute to the joy/laughter/love of the day!
We could not have asked for more!!

Now we just have two more weeks to go until he gets here!!

Friday, February 3, 2012


I'm so happy its Friday! 
The end of a rather slow moving week and one step closer to meeting my occupant.
37 weeks this Monday......yikes!!
Tomorrow we are heading to a baby shower in our honor with all of our local family and friends and I am super excited about that.
Mexican food......yummmm.
I've spent the week crafting decorations for it all and I can't wait to see how they look set up.
Some might say that I shouldn't have done that because its a shower for me (well my baby bump) but I had a whole Pinterest board full of ideas and why not use them?!!
Upside is I can re-use most of them in the nursery anyway!
On top of all that, the weather is supposed to be fabulous so I'm pretty excited to bust out a fun dress, some eyelashes and get all prettied up for the day.
Had my regular check up with the doctor yesterday and all is well.
No fun happenings on my end so I don't go back until the week before my scheduled C-section unless something wacky happens next week.
No contracting as of yet (not even a Braxton-Hicks) so looks like things will be going according to schedule.
After a few sleepless nights this past week I'm so ready to meet this guy!!
I'm getting more excited as each day passes and I think my other +2 are just as excited.

We've really been focused on relaxing and enjoying each others company all week long.
No one makes me laugh like Babe & Sweet Pea do.
They do & say some of the craziest things that just kill me......
I am really loving this place we are in.

I'm off to get a mani/pedi and run some last minute errands.

What are you all up to this weekend?

Wednesday, February 1, 2012


There are moments when I forget that I am actually a 9 months pregnant woman.
Particularly when I realize I have to potty first thing in the morning and I try to sit up too suddenly and am immediately weighted down.
Aside from the fact that there is a person living inside of me, if he's not moving around I kind of continue to think I'm still "me".
A quick glimpse in the mirror rectifies all that for me, but its not to say it doesn't happen.
In my mind, I can still sprint up the stairs to grab whatever it is I've forgotten, then reality sets in when I find myself huffing up the last few steps.
But it's almost done.
I literally have 3.5 more weeks of this little boy living inside of me.
Kicking and pushing against my skin. 
Stretching my stomach to an uncomfortable state and making sleep close to impossible.
Soon I will get to gaze into the face of the person who has made the last few weeks a little more uncomfortable than I would like.
I can't wait.
People keep asking if we are "ready" for this change and the honest answer is " yes....We are so ready to meet him and see how our lives will be forever changed.".
I mean we have the "things" we need ; minus a few essentials (more diapers, blankets, towels & whatnots) 
No bag has been packed.
No going home outfit washed, ready and waiting at the door.
But the car seat and stroller are sitting in the living room just waiting.
A constant reminder to get on the ball and get our ish together.
But I'm savoring these last few weeks.
As much as I am 'over it' and ready to meet this little dude, I am also relishing the act of carrying him.
Because all too soon it will be over.
I look at the calendar and think to myself: "really? 3 weeks is all I have left?"
It is both an eternity and the blink of an eye.
Funny how that works isn't it?
36 weeks this week and counting.
3 more to go before our scheduled meet & greet.
I've been focusing on just spending a lot of quality time with the Sweet Pea.
She is so important to me.
To this family and we don't ever want her to feel as though she is being passed over.
She has also been extremely helpful in the last few weeks.
She picks up the things I drop and can't quickly reach.
She brings in groceries.
She gets all A's on her progress report.
I am one proud mama.
And my husband has been a gem.
He brought me Girl Scout cookies yesterday.
And ginger ale the day before.
That rocked my world.
He makes me laugh and giggles with me at the awkwardness with which I sit on the couch or get up from it.
These are the moments I need to savor and file away for later.
This has been an emotional journey for sure but one I wouldn't go back and change for anything.


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