Showing posts from October, 2011

times they are a changin' - halloween 2011

My how times have changed. In my day Halloween was spent preparing for weeks for the 'perfect costume' be it scary or sweet. Rushing home from school to finish homework and squeeze in dinner all so we could get ready to 'go out'. We'd hit the main street (my brother and I) and by the time we got to the end of the block I was usually done. I'd gotten scared out of my mind by the older kids on the block one year and a couple of houses had really spooky decor. I was not excited about it. On occasion we might go one or two streets over but that was a rarity and all based on my mood. No we were old fashioned and went door to door asking our strange neighbors for candy. And oddly enough - most folks participated even if they didn't have kids. I guess it was the spirit of the community. These days "Trick-or-Treating" is kind of a thing of the past. Kids still get dressed up and are pretty excited at the prospect of an assortment of goodies and their parents encoura…

color bind

Have you ever read a blog that moved you to your core randomly? Like you've never met this person and this is the first time you've read their words but suddenly you find yourself sobbing in front of your computer? Yeah - that's what happened when I discovered Life in Grace. Edie had just lost everything in a devastating house fire and was grateful to escape with her life and that of her family in tact. I was terribly moved and crying at work. She was so full of grace and Christ's love while suffering a tragic loss and it just rocked me to my core to see how her faith was overshadowing her loss. I've followed her blog for the last year as she posted about their re-building process and found myself scouring older posts to see the wonder that was her house before. This month she's working on a 31 day series documenting the transformation of her new living space.  It's awesome.
This morning over my spiced cider and pumpkin bread I was able to catch up on the progress a…

getting it done

This is my last week home with Babe and it has been a doozy. We've spent the majority of the week cleaning and organizing everything. I've mentioned before I'm a little obsessive compulsive about my things and where and how they are put away so having him 'help' me was a bit of a challenge on my part. Top that off with being a natural procrastinator (I am notorious for starting projects and not following through) and you have a recipe for FUN! However, it turned out better than expected. Monday I had lunch w/ my girlfriend and her mini-man (my boyfriend) and we ran errands and caught up. Tuesday was another trip to the doctor where I discovered I've gained 7lbs. In. two. weeks. Perhaps I should lay off the bacon covered everything? Meh.
(yes, that seems a bit vain and I realize I'm with child but that doesn't mean I should turn into a whale does it?)
Then our computer went black. Insert panic attack here (no internet!!??? how will I survive?) Wednesday I cruised on …

significant chatter

there are times when we (women) like to run our mouths for no particular reason. just make conversation with folks and get our chit-chat on. most days its simply because we require some kind of adult conversation and some days we just need to vent. However, I am a fan of significant chatter. You know conversations that actually mean something?
Where you skip the banal pleasantries and get down to the nitty gritty? Those are my favorite. It doesn't have to be deeply profound - it can be as simple as discussing paint colors or as deep as discussing our place in life. All the same it still moves me and re-kindles something inside me. I had the pleasure of spending some QT with one of my favorite ladies and we chatted it up all the day long. And then we went to dinner with her and chatted it up some more. And it was good. My heart was full and happy. Aside from eating at one of our favorite restaurantsit was just a good time to catch up and share thoughts and ideas. It's funny, how a few momen…

Souful Sunday

I am super jazzed and in an excellent mood. Not much could thwart it to be honest. Babe let me sleep in way past what I wanted but exactly as long as I needed. I have pumpkin bread baking in my oven (thank you Trader Joe's) and thusly my house smells DIVINE,

the sun is shining, I got all my items at the grocery store for under $40 (whoop whoop!), my Sweet Pea is happily hanging out in her room in her jammies and I don't have a problem with that. Babe is hunkered down on the couch for his weekly Sunday football fest. I'm making a pot roast with smoky new potatoes and green beans for dinner and possibly cornbread or biscuits ( I haven't decided which). Life is pretty good.
This has been my first week "off" of work and while it has been busy doing things around the house (hello clean kitchen sink, bathroom and mirrors) it has been quite relaxing as well. We are getting into a familiar routine and that soothes my soul. I can pretty much feel the stress melting away and t…

up all night

Monday night since we finished dinner early and had plenty of time to kill, Babe and I had an "on demand" marathon. this where we watch several episodes of a show that we haven't had time to catch to determine if we want to add it to our DVR schedule. Last night it was "Up All Night" with Christina Applegate, Maya Rudolph and Will Arnett I have to say - I LOVED it and can't wait to see more. It's funny, it's relevant and it makes parenting seem "cool".
Sort of. I was listening to the radio the other day and Carson Daly (former MTV veejay) stated he thougth the show was brilliant and could totally resonate with a lot of 30 somethings out there right now. I have to say I agree. If you don't know, its about a couple who has a baby that ultimately changes their lives and are still trying to hang on to their "cool factor" while reconciling the fact that they are indeed.....parents. It's hilarious. Damon and I often chuckle about how &q…

labor of love

To push or  to section That is a major question. well for me it is. That's what I keep getting asked. "Are you going to try and have a VBAC (vaginal birth after Cesarean) or are you going to take the easy way out?" Umm. I don't think either way is "easy" by any means thank-you-very-much. I've had a c-section and I had one for a reason. It wasn't mere vanity or  a scheduling choice. And this time well.....this time I am making the choice ahead of time. I've decided to go ahead and schedule a c-section for Baby Ninja. (insert shocked gasps, head shaking and tsk-tsking here.....I'll wait) I am choosing to do this because I have no desire to put my body or my baby through any unnecessary trauma. Now do I know for sure that my plan is going to go exactly the way I think? Nope. That is the beauty of God's plan co-mingled with having children. Nothing goes "according to plan". It's all a crap shoot. I learned that with Sweet Pea and have seen …

winds of change

The time has come, to say goodbye to my Hautelook family. Today marks the last day for several months that I will get up in the dark, the wee twilight hours and get dressed. (because we all know that in a few months I will be getting up all the same but I won't be putting clothes on for that or showering for that matter) Today I will race to the train station to get a "good space" both in line and parking and make the trek to downtown L.A. My doctor has advised that I be put on early pregnancy leave so I will now be off work until further notice.
It is bittersweet. I will miss all my HL friends & family. The "train friends" I have made - some whose names I know others whom I do not. There will be a small void left with out the "need to be needed"-ness of going to a job everyday.......however; I have been overly stressed and working on a high level anxiety for the last few months. A crippling anxiety that has left me feeling overwhelmed, under pressure and …

Finding my Voice - featured essay

Would love it if you headed over to and checked out my latest essay:
Finding My Voice
the beauty of what happened when I attended a conference and let myself be open to the possibilities.
Tell me, what possibilities have been shown to you lately?

the struggle

There are times in which we hope against hope for things we know will likely not happen. Times when we pray for things just outside of our reach because that's what we think we need & feel we want. Or is that just me? There have been a few instances in the last month where things were looking gloriously bright.  But then the light abruptly dimmed. My career as a writer, a makeup artist, a creative being has been challenged. Things that I had hoped would happen haven't. Things I need to be doing, I have not. I am inspired but lack motivation? I don't know. I was hopeful that a few events would pan out and allow a bit of wiggle room in our budget but alas they didn't/haven't panned out. I'm not 100% sure why so that is bothering me as well. Part of my issue is I want things to happen when and how I want them to happen. Or I get an idea into my head and have already planned out exactly how XYZ will benefit my family's life and then when it doesn't happen or pan …

Soulful weekend

Is is just me or does the weekend seem to go by too quickly? these days Saturday and Sunday just seem to fly by. This weekend was no exception.  It seemed like Saturday was here and then it was Sunday afternoon and time to get ready for the week all over again! But all things considered it was a good weekend. We had no plans for once. So I slept in ridiculously late Saturday had some breakfast and then  realized I was supposed to buy some onesies from Hautelookso I quickly logged on to the computer to do so, then I proceeded to lay around on the couch and watch "Top Chef: Just Desserts" with my family. Then Babe and I watched "Limitless" having fallen asleep at the end of of Transformers 3 the night before, I was unable to hang for one more movie at that point. We finally all got ourselves together for an outing to the illustrious Home Depot to gather paint swatches for the nursery. It was Babe's first time out of the house since last Friday. He was quite excited. We the…

halfway there- random pregnancy ramblings

" Congratulations you're halfway there!"
That's the first email I saw this morning from one of many baby/pregnancy email updates I get. This growing a person inside of you deal is halfway over. I'm that much closer to meeting my son.
(insert awkward happy dance here) And all I can think is: I have GOT to get on the ball! We haven't done anything it seems!! Sure we got the would-be nursery semi cleared out
(where oh where will I put all of my craft supplies?) And I'm starting to narrow down ideas for Baby Ninja's room and overall "vibe" which is good.
But danggit there are so many good ideas out there that I will never be able to do it all.
(thank you Pinterest for giving me all kinds of wacky ideas)
And lets talk about naming this kid shall we?
It seemed like coming up with a name for Sweet Pea was easy as pie and in fact it was my friend Pie and I who sort of finalized the name.
Babe gave his approval after she and I had narrowed down the list.

week 20: what's working for me

This week finally feels like fall around here! Saturday and Sunday it was like 80-90 degrees but Monday was a little cooler and by Tuesday......well I got to rock my new boots! Can you say excited!!?????
So I pulled together this little number and was off to work.
I was pretty comfortable for most of the day save for a post-El Cholo lunch throwdown where I had one too many chips y salsa.
That being said, I'm linking up with Lindsey again for WIWW!!!

Top: H&M
Jeans: Gap "skinny" maternity
Boots: Steven by Steve Madden
Necklace & Earrings : H&M

It's a rainy day today but I still wanted to feel "pretty" and rock my other new boots and my favorite sweater dress from last season.
Surprisingly if fits particularly well and I don't look super large!

Dress: Nordstrom Rack
Tights: Target
Boots: Steven by Steve Madden
Neckalce: gifted
Earrings: Forever 21

So what's been your favorite outfit this week?

Street Chic - featuring ME!!

Rememberthiswhen I said I was encouraged by a friend to post about what was working for me, fashion wise, while pregnant? Well this is why One of my favorite shoe sites, Sole Society did a Street Chicfeature for some of their October shoes and they chose ME ( of all people) to participate!!
For some reason they seem to think me stylish - go figure.....
It made my week let me just tell you!
 Oh and by the way - the shoes on my feet?
Yeah those are the "Amber"!!!
I have my own SHOES!!!!

Talk about a shoe lover's dream!
So if you're not a member for some strange reason please gohere and sign up now.
You won't regret it.
I think I may need to add both of these to my collection :

 Hot pink patent flats?? Yes PLEASE!!!

oh and here are some random outtakes from my shoot:

thanks for the love ladies!!

What are your favorite shoes for fall?

Post -Op

Oh what a weekend. At this point I wish there really were two of me. One to take the much needed nap I am craving and the other to guzzle the glass of wine I am wishing for. Clearly neither of those things are going to happen as there is laundry to be done and things to get sorted for the coming week. My exhaustion is earned though and oddly not pregnancy related. Friday I had to take my husband to the hospital to have his gall bladder removed. Serious but yet not so much. We were there waiting for several hours before they finally took him back to the O.R. at 4:45pm. Pregnant lady in an uncomfortable chair, freezing room and with no snacks? Oh I was PLEASANT. Fortunately my mother-in-love came to check on her baby boy so she stayed while I rushed to get Sweet Pea from school. She had to eat in the car. I felt terrible. We stopped home first for jackets and a change of clothes for me (those hospitals are COLD!) and a few items for Babe as he was going to be kept overnight. Got back to the hospital…