Tuesday, March 30, 2010

The TRUTH for Tuesday

so last night Babe and I were listening to music and trying to decide on songs for
the first dance,
the father/daughter  dance (for him & Sweet Pea) 
and the music the girls were going to walk into.
And as we were playing the songs it just brought us back to a place of love and contentment
(well at least it did for me)
I listened to each one and was able to recall a moment or feeling that we have shared over the past 10 
(yes TEN!!!) years with each other.
so this morning I was inspired to put on my "Lurve Songs" mix and the 3rd song in is this:

I LOVE this song.
I remember when my BFF Michelle got married 6 years ago and we were discussing this song, I liked it then but couldn't really relate wholly as I wasn't sure that I knew/understood what it meant to have the TRUTH.....
and now....
 here are the lyrics:

"The Truth"

Let me tell you why I love him

Cause he is the truth
Said he is so real
And I love the way that he makes me feel
And if I am a reflection of him then I must be fly cause
his light it shines so bright I wouldn't lie

[Verse 1:]
I remember the very first day that I saw him
I found myself immediately intrigued by him
Its almost like I knew this man from another life
Like back then maybe I was his husband and maybe he was my wife
And even, the things I don't like about him are fine with me
Because its not hard for me to understand him because he's so much like me
And its truly my pleasure to share his company
And I know that it's God's gift to breathe the air he breathes

[Repeat Chorus]

[Verse 2:]
How can the same man that makes me so mad
-do you know what he did-[spoken]
Turn right around and kiss me so soft
-girl do you know what he did-[spoken]
If he ever left me, I wouldn't even be sad, no
Cause there's a blessing in every lesson
And I'm glad that I knew him at all

[Repeat Chorus]

I love the way he speaks
I love the way he thinks
I love the way he treats his mama
I love that gap in between his teeth
I love him in every way that a woman can love a man from personal to universal but most of all its unconditional

-you know what I'm talking about-[spoken]
Thats the way I feel
-and I always will-[spoken]

There ain't no substitute for the truth
either it is or isnt
cause he is the truth
you see the truth it, needs no proof
either it is or it isnt
Cause he is the truth
Now you know the truth by the way it feels
and if I am a reflection of him then I must be fly
cause he is yes he is
I wonder does he know [echoes]

(p.s. that's my friend Tai Boogie in the video - they were an actual real live couple at the time and if I remember correctly she wrote this song for him.....swoon)

Monday, March 29, 2010

monday musings

aaaaand we're back.
back to life....back to reality...back to the heeeeeree and nowwwwww
(yeah I'm taking it back to the 90's today)

It's Monday. And while not quite manic it is a day of drama usually.
anything that can will go wrong on a Monday or Friday.
however, this morning I got my workout in, made lunches and hopped on the EARLY train to work!
that never happens.
Especially since I had a dark Eeyore like cloud over me yesterday.
I was not a happy camper.
Far from my usual happy-go lucky, fun self.
I don't like that person.
I feel weird when I get like that but I couldn't seem to control it.
I was IRRITATED all weekend.
I had to give myself a MAJOR pep-talk this morning and stay focused on the positive.

* Sweet Pea was able to attend a birthday party for a classmate on Saturday and then was blessed to be invited to Knott's Berry Farm by one of my B.F's for her daughter's 8th bday.
Our girls are two weeks apart and "sister-friends".
they don't go to school together so we try to let them hang out whenever possible.
She of course had a BLAST and was able to go on her first 'big kid' roller coaster, was responsible for and spent all of her own money and had an all around good time with her b.f.f.!!!
Thanks Eb !!!

* My paper for my invitations came in!!! whooo hoo!!!
last week I was so excited to relieve several emails from former classmates telling me about all the FABULOUS websites for free fonts!
Love to you all!
Thanks for the info!

* Another fab girlfriend rolled out to Colton w/ me yesterday
(if you don't know where Colton is - don't worry, neither did I. Just know that it's hot and dusty and there's not much out there)
to go look at linens.
in the dead, dry heat of the middle of the day in the I.E.
that is friendship folks. (thanks Tiff!)
we were able to pick out napkins and overlays and the wonderful lady (Anabel) who assisted us was so great about picking out the colors and working with us to find what we were looking for!
Not only that but I'm getting a HECK of a deal!!!
whoo hoo!

* my wonderful crafty friend Rachel has agreed to help me shimmy togther (her words =>) a hair piece for myself and for the flower girls!!!
I can't wait to get to to it and looking forward to a wedding craft night!!!

* met with the DJ tonight and am SO excited.
He's fun, versatile and "gets" us and our rather eclectic musical tastes.
Just chatting with him for the brief half an hour made me feel so comfortable and that our wedding would not be "cheesy" thanks to some random DJ.
so thanks Ryan for the hook-up!!

* my photographer is amazing (big surprise there) and is working with us to create an AWESOME guest book and I have to say she has done a KILLER job.
Thanks Mel!

all in all I am in a much more positive place today than I was yesterday or the day before.
I have to not let the small stuff.
Take joy in the little victories and remember what it's all about!

so how was your monday?

getting to know YOU ......(or rather ME)...

Y'all know how much I like taking surveys and filling out questionnaires so I was of course eager and excited to play along w/ Keely over at MannLand 5 for this week's edition of 
"Getting to know YOU "


And wouldn't you know it - this week's questions are all posed by a MAN!!
so let's see what he wonders about shall we????? 

1 - Why did you start blogging?
honestly, I have been keep a journal of some kind for as long as I remember. although sometimes my hand gets cramped from writing so hard and so long. and after reading my friend's  IRL Rachel and Shanna's blogs it inspired me to start my own and create a fun way to capture all the moments I may not feel like physically writing about or remember! it's also a nice way to keep far flung family members connected to what's going on in our world. Not too mention a GREAT way to get information from others and make "new friends"
2 - Who's the one blog friend that you would want to meet most in "real life"?
trick question! I say all of them! I read their blogs because I'm interested in them so of COURSE I want to meet them in real life!!
3 - Why are you always concerned with losing that "extra 10 pounds" when chances are your husband/boyfriend/friends tell you that you look just fine the way you are?
I'm not.
Why - do I look fat?? Bwaahahahah!
No - I work out and maintain my weight and size for ME. do you know how hard it is to replace your favorite jeans because you ate too many christmas cookies? My Babe thinks I am fine w/ 10 more or 10 less lbs (well w/ 10 less he might think something's wrong w/ me!!)
4 - What's the one thing you wish guys could understand about you?
that sometimes "nothing" is actually wrong and I'm just in a bad mood! sheesh!
5 - Tattoos. How many do you have and how many are visible when you wear your "everyday" clothes?
I have 4. only one is visible on the regular. the other 3 just depend on how I'm sitting (ya know, low rise jeans and all) 3 are butterfly's and the 4th is a constellation I created on my ankle/foot. I want another one on the inside of my wrist......maybe after the wedding
6 - What was the best year of your life and why?
hmm best YEAR. I dont know about the whole year but I wrote a poem once that began,
"Our 19th year was my favorite year, we had more fun than anyone, without affect of being 21......"
I would say the year Sweet Pea was born was pretty awesome and then last year - getting engaged, graduating from FIDM and turning 30!!! But this year we get married!!! I think it's a three-way tie.
7 - Name three things you would do if you were a man for one day.
If I lived someplace cold I'd for sure write my name in the snow w/ my pee & just pee outside in general. Scratch my balls in public and generally be oblivious to 'drama'.
8 - What's your alcoholic drink of choice that usually raises a few eyebrows?
 Being that I have a lot of folks who like to drink in our family nothing really raises an eyebrow. 
My drink of choice is usually a margarita, some kind of flavored martini or patron shots......thats jut how we roll.

Geez that was fun! Link up and play along!!!

Friday, March 26, 2010

fabulous friday & 5 questions

  Hey now - it's freaking friday and officially the weekend!!!
Is everybody as excited about it as I am??
How can you NOT be? 
It's the first official week of spring......the weather here is LOVELY. 
A few morning clouds but mostly sunny with a slight breeze in the afternoon. (don't I sound like I work for the weather channel??)
AND it has been an interesting week!

I was able to knock a few things off my "Wedding To -Do" list  ( whoop whoop!!), ordered all my items for the invitations (and received half of them!) AND  scored a MAJOR find yesterday. 
I REALLY want to share with everyone but it's going to be a surprise so you'll have to wait until July to find out! sorry!
I haven't participated in a while as I have been kind of just going through the motions in all areas  but I'm feeling like "myself" today so lets hit it!!!

Hop on over to Mama M's blog and link up for some fun!
Or stalk read the other blogs and maybe find a few more you like and make some new freinds!
so heeeeeeereeee we go!

1. Did you pass your driver's test on the first try?

no. only because the stupid horn didnt work and I had to re-schedule and take it again. terrible moment and I am still irritated about it! but upon returning YES!!!
2. What is your most embarrassing moment?

I dont know that I have just ONE embarrasssing moment being that I am pretty much an embarrassing moment waiting to happen......one moment would be in jr. high.
was hanging out w/ my "boyfriend" walking to our lockers trying to decide whose to check out first and pulling on each other when I slipped in my sandals and slid about 3 feet on the ground. ever so gracefully of course. with the WHOLE jr. high watching. yeah. that was a winner.
3. What TV show would you like to be on- Oprah, Biggest Loser, or What Not to Wear?

well - i love Oprah and Jillian is on the Biggest Loser so she'd get me into shape but really......What Not To Wear. A chance to hang out w/ Clinton & Stacy, someone to help me find "my style" and spend $5000!!!! heck yeah sign me up!!!!

4. Would you ever get plastic surgery and what kind?

if you had asked me that 10 years ago I might have said NO. but I was in my early twenties then, no post baby body or boobs. Now.....well lets just say a little lifting and separating never hurt anyone. Can I get a witness????
I'm just sayin.....
and if I have another baby maybe a tuck or lift if necessary but never like a major facial overhaul.
I pretty much like ME the way I am!
5. What are your favorite jeans to wear?
 I am a jeans girl and being that I am from California makes it worse. We wear jeans everywhere and to everything. So I have a multitude to dress up/dress down or just lounge around the house in!
but my FAVORITES are my Joe's Jeans - fit so well, good color and comfy as all get out.
and my James Jeans cured by Seun. LOVE LOVE LOVE hugs the butt real nice and makes it look .....well ....er uhmm.....juicy. at least that's what Babe says and his word is bond!
So there you have it! 
A fabulous Friday with Five Questions to leave you wanting more!!
hahaha! yeah right!
Have a FABULOUS weekend!!!! 

MckLinky Blog Hop

Wednesday, March 24, 2010

weekend wrap up

With all the hoopla over health-care reform I missed posting about our weekend!

I had such an amazing weekend I want to share it with everyone !! 
Sweet Pea spent the weekend in the Valley with her cousins and Granna
Of course she had a BLAST.
She played ALL weekend long and even came home with a few 'extra' dolls and such!
We missed her terribly but Babe and I kept managed to keep ourselves pretty occupied.
Friday night we had a romantic dinner.
At Johnny Rockets.
Just the two of us.
And my wedding folder. =)
chock full of articles, ideas and to-do's !
While at dinner we were able to hash out some ideas for the favors,
Tux's and the invitations.
Which leads me to my next adventure.
Poor Babe was left to his own devices on Saturday as I had a girls day & evening planned.
I started out by driving to Lakewood to see my girl Amber V. 
We had plans to venture to the paper store to scout styles/colors and price the sheets for the invitations I plan on making.
So the first location is closed. 
No big deal since there is another one in Anaheim.
So off we went!
Only to discover that they close at 1pm on Saturdays.
We got there at 1:28pm.
We took a quick minute to re-group (that Amber is a bomb chick I tell ya)
then headed over to ScrapBook Depot to check out what they had to offer.
The lady was SUPER helpful and answered all our questions and ordered my paper right away!
After getting the quote and realizing how much money I was saving, 
Amber pointed out there was a small print shop in the same center.
So we happily walked over to check it out and get a quote.
Once again, the proprietor of this location was a GEM.
Just the nicest and most helpful man (he was giving his wife a much needed day off!)
and was more than happy to provide me with quote.
Which was a STEAL by the way.
Seriously y'all I am scoring in a major way with this D.I.Y. business.
Pleased with ourselves we were off to celebrate at El Zarape in Cypress.
Now - I have to tell a story about this ;
My dad lives in Cypress. 
Matter of fact, he lives around the corner
(and by around the corner I mean one block of homes)
from El Zarape.
He's lived there since I was 13.
That restaurant has been there since we moved.
Saturday was my first time going.
Oh the irony.
So we went.
And the food was GOOD.
Margarita was GREAT!
So now I have a "new" local restaurant when I am down that way and craving Mexican fare!
After a lovely afternoon w/ my friend and name twin I headed back to my "Hills".
No one was home when I got there - Babe had gone to his friends house to 'play' 
(read : he went to watch the NCAA tournament & play video games)
 so I laid down for 'just a minute' and woke only when the phone rang.
My good friend Tiffany and I had plans to go out to dinner later on and she was calling to check on me, knowing I would have come home to quiet and KNOCKED OUT!
Which I did.
But I rallied and got myself together for Ladies Night!!!
We hit up the Yard House for dinner and drinks with intentions of seeing a movie but were diverted from our plans due to the wait at Yard House.
No worries though.
Martini's in hand we sat down and geared up for a chat fest that would last well into the morning.
Which it did.
And it felt SO good.
I spent the entire day with women who love, support and LISTEN to me.
Talk about what I needed!
God is so good!
He brought these women to me and allowed us to have time together, without any distractions, right when I needed it the most.
I stayed up wayyy too late and then spent the next morning laying around with Babe pondering the mysteries of life.
(not really. well not that last part. we did lay around quite a bit though)
We caught up on the DVR and enjoyed a nice deep, heartfelt conversation - without having to check and make sure no little ears were nearby.
I ended up not cooking as the afternoon turned into evening far too quickly so we opted to partake in my leftovers from the night before.
Crashed and burned about 11pm and enjoyed a peaceful sleep.

A most lovely weekend.
Time well spent and rest much needed.

Thank you Amber and Tiffany for a lovely Saturday.
For making me laugh until my cheeks hurt and for being such great girl friends!

Thank you Babe for understanding my need for some "girl talk" and for going along with my choices for the NCAA tournament. =)
See I DO know what I'm doing!!!

Monday, March 22, 2010

Insert Foot in Mouth......Now

If there was an award for most inappropriate comments at an inopportune  moment
it's for sure me
I am completely honest and open about the fact that my
"brain to mouth" function is faulty
For as long as I can remember my mouth and my facial expressions have been getting me into trouble.
And it's not intentionally.
My intentions are good but sometimes my mouth operates before my brain 
and my words are often misinterpreted or misunderstood.
And really its something that I work on daily.
I know that I struggle with this
trust me i KNOW.
and I work very hard at keeping my thoughts to myself and 90% of the time I do a pretty good job.
but....(sigh) alas there is that other 10% that is just totally unaccounted for.
No rhyme or reason.
Stuff just fly's out.
I may be in a mood and just feeling a bit snappish and mumble something
or I might be re-acting to a slight (real or imagined)
or I could be a slightly inebriated and feel emboldened by the liquid courage......
you just never know.
Now I NEVER say anything I could not say to a persons face and 9 times out of 10 I would say it.
Basically - I say out loud most of the things that people think.
Like the man w/ the sandals on and a MAJOR "lotion situation" going on?
yeah. I'm gonna say something smart.
Teenager mouthing off ?
- yeah I'll mouth of right back (so mature right? I know)
and instantly regret it.
Sarcasm is my weapon of choice and can often be found in my everyday conversation.
It is my second nature to be sarcastic.
But I do apologize when/ if I realize that I have offended anyone.
and I am sincere.
It is never my intent to be malicious and hurt anyone so if this has happened to you by me or someone else
please understand that it's a personal flaw and we are all works in progress.

Now you may be asking yourself - why is she even bringing this up?
Well for one major reason.
I have been STRESSED.
Emotions maxed out and being pulled in so many directions so my thought process is not quite as clear as it usually is.
My trap is a bit clogged and not filtering thoughts as well as often.
so I'm sorry.
Point blank.
To any and all that have been......( I don't know I don't want to say 'victims' or 'targets' but....)
who have been affected by my "word vomit".

Be patient with me.......God's not finished with me yet.

Friday, March 19, 2010

good grief

I have been going through some things lately.
Feeling some kind of way.
I realize that grief is a process and I am slowly healing from the loss of our family matriarch
but some days are better than others.
the last few days have been particularly tough.
I can be sitting at work, on the train or cooking dinner and will be hit with a memory or thought and suddenly a wave of emotion washes over me.
and I have been pushing it away.
trying to recover quickly and move forward
because I want to heal and process and I have such a short attention span -
I want to deal and move on.
but that's not happening
Everyday is a struggle to keep my emotions in check.
They say that there are 5 stages of grief:
  • Denial: “This can’t be happening to me.”
  • Anger:Why is this happening? Who is to blame?”
  • Bargaining: “Make this not happen, and in return I will ____.”
  • Depression: “I’m too sad to do anything.”
  • Acceptance: “I’m at peace with what happened.”
And I have definitely experienced most of those.

I have accepted that she's gone.
It's just hard to reconcile what I know with what I feel
I know in my heart I cannot pick up the phone to tell her how excited I am about my dress or how Sweet Pea looked when she blew out her candles.
But my heart still feels like she is here and wants to call.
I won't delete her info out of my phone book and it's like a sharp pain every time I scroll through and come across her entry.
Last night I had the pleasure of chatting with one of my Aunts who lives in Hawaii and she had nothing but encouraging words for me.
So what I needed to hear.
Basically she was reminding me that I need to let myself feel.
To not hide or run from the pain but to really let the emotions happen.
Be in the moment and just 'cry it out' if necessary.
She reminded me that even though I may feel like I "don't have time for the emotional break down" it will be beneficial in the long run.
And I am inclined to agree.
She reminded me that at the end of the day what was really important was that we remain in tact as a family and continue to love and support each other w
this process is taking a toll on me - physically, emotionally and mentally.
I have got to let it happen and stop fighting it.
I was speaking to another one of my Aunts over the weekend and she ordered me a book
"Healing after Loss" or something to that affect a daily devotional for those who have lost a loved one and I really can't wait for it to get here.
I think it will be rather helpful to me.
I am feeling all kinds of out of sorts and really want to get back to 
'feeling like myself'
If that makes any sense.
so if you happen to see or call me and I don't appear to be my usual bubbly and upbeat self
or if we're hanging out and I appear to have 'spaced out'
just understand "it's not you. It's me"
(seriously though)
And I just need some time to deal with this thing called grief......

Thursday, March 18, 2010


I'm whipped.
worn out. 
completely drained.
and it's only Thursday.
I should be ecstatic it's almost the end of the week - but alas I have pushed myself to the limit this week.
My emotions are raw and frayed.
My feelings - on my sleeve.
I've started 4 posts this week and have completed only 1
And really that's only because I didn't' have to "think" about my words so much.
My brain is mush.
I have so many thoughts and emotions running rampant and I cannot for the life of me seem to get it together 
or form a cohesive post.
I am literally all over the place.
I've been getting confused, distracted and easily disgruntled.
So not the business.
I want to be light and happy.
but right now - I 'm having a REAL hard time.
there is so much back and forth with all the wedding ish .....and it's KILLING me.
I am at my wit's end.
this is supposed to be fun right?

maybe I just need a nap.
or drink.

let's reverse that -
drink then nap.

sounds like a plan to me!!

time out on Thursday ....for the kids

Hey Everyone!

I just wanted to take a quick time out this Thursday morning to ask you to go 
HERE and sign the petition to stop the psychotropic drugging of children in America.
Many of you may have friends, family members or  perhaps children of your own who have been diagnosed with some type of mental or behavioral challenge such as ADD/ADHD etc. and have been recommended they be 'treated' with medication.
The practices of labeling thousands of American children with psychiatric disorders and subsequently drugging them is probably one of the most atrocious crimes against children that has ever been allowed in the history of America and unless parents take a stand, this cycle will only continue to get worse.
Especially for those children who have no parent or advocate to speak for them.

So please, take a minute and go SIGN it !

this has been a public service announcement.
we will now get back to your regularly scheduled programming

Monday, March 15, 2010

A Sweet Pea Celebration

8 years ago today I went in for my regularly scheduled weekly doctor's visit.
My E.D.D (estimated date of delivery) was the next day and I was anxious to see if any of the "remedies" I had tested proved fruitful.
Not too mention the Braxton Hicks were driving me up a wall.
Get to the doctor's office and nothin.
Like negative nothing. Barely dilated and so ready to get this show on the road
( I was rather impatient to meet my Sweet Pea at this point)
Due to a non-impressive heart rate and the lack of major movement I was scheduled to be induced.
I was admitted to the hospital after notifying friends and family, anxious to meet our baby.
After 1.5 hours of labor w/ no progress and a declining fetal heart rate - they went ahead with a C-section.
And thusly at 2:14 a.m. on  March 14th, 2002 my Sweet Pea came into the world and changed my life forever.

To My Sweet Pea Angel,
Happy Birthday Puddinl!!
I can't believe you are 8 years old! It seems like yesterday we were driving to the hospital and suddenly you were placed in my arms! What a sweet little pea you were!
These last few years have flown by!
I am so proud of the girl you are becoming and can't wait to see young woman you grow into!
You are such a creative being! I am always amazed at how well you can re-create what you see on TV and in your head! Your imagination is such a wonderful gift and you crack us up with your stories and ideas!
This year you have grown so much! Beginning the Second grade, winning several awards, becoming more proficient in your reading and how you express yourself overall! 
You truly are the light of our lives and we couldn't imagine our world without you!
What a blessing you have been to the entire family!
Mommy and Daddy love you so much and thank God for you everyday.

My cup runneth over.

Love always,


Tuesday, March 9, 2010

Small Triumphs

*I am only missing ONE address for my final guest list.
that's right folks. 
ONE address. 
so.excited to knock that off my 'To -Do' list - which at this point is rather long and detailed.
* I think I have decided on a pair of shoes too! = )
I can't wait to put them on under my dress!
speaking of 'under my dress' I guess I need to get some kind of pretty lingerie for the day huh?
can't go wearing my regular stuff from V.S.
*Sweet Pea got 100 on ALL of her tests last week!! and it's her birthday week!
good times!
* we booked our HONEYMOON!!!
cannot wait until July 25th......
all I will say is that it will require me to pack at least 4 bathing suits.
* BOTH of my BFF's (& matron's of honor) have birthdays this month!
I wish I could hang out w/ them both.
We haven't spent a birthday together in years - but alas, time, finances and work always get in the way.
no worries - come July we're going to party hardy!
I repeat:
whoop whoop!!! 
It's a miracle!
I tried them on late Sunday night 'just to see' and they fit! comfortably I might add!
Now let me preface this by saying that these are not the super skinny jeans, just a few pairs that had gotten ....let's say "snug" over the past few months.
Snug -they are no more!!!!

Happy Tuesday everyone!!!

Celebrate good times! c'mon!!!

Holy Blog-a-versary Batman!!!
A whole year has gone by?!
Did you know today is my Blog-a-versary!!!!
One year ago today I began this experiment that is
Sweet Pea's corner.
Really, just as a way to keep track of all the goings on in our lives and to update family and friends who didn't live close by.
Somewhere along the way it evolved into something else.
Something a bit more personal than just a photo diary of who, what, when and where.
Sweet Pea's Corner became a way to vent frustrations, 
get advice, share joys and triumphs as well as trials and tribulations.
It's been a way to explore my faith, re-connect with old friends,
make loads of new ones
and it has taken my 'cyber stalking' to a whole new level!!
I have discovered so many worlds out there all through the wonders of blog stalking hopping!
It has been an amazing journey.
Full of joy,
some sorrow
a few tears
but mostly laughter and love.
And that, folks is exactly what I plan to keep on doing.
I want this blog to be more than an account of life in general.
More than just what Sweet Pea is up to and the silly things she says and does.
This is going to be a chronicle - of OUR life.
Mostly from my perspective of course but that's how it goes around here.
So thank you to those that read these tales of mine.
Thanks even more to those who comment or email me about them later!
I love to hear your feedback!!!
(although that's not why I do this)
So tell me is there anything you would like to see more of around here?
(singing in my head....."more,more, more....how do you like it?")
More pictures?
More makeup / beauty tips?
More wedding craziness?

Tell me!!!!
And I will do my best to appease the 12 folks that actually read this thing consistently!
Thanks for being encouraging, supportive and most of all.....
Thanks for stopping by Sweet Pea's Corner!!!!

Tuesday, March 2, 2010


two blogs I normally stalk posted with similar themes today.
which is quite interesting considering they are sister in law's as well as friends.
you see my friend Rachel's little girl turned two over the weekend,
and my photographer friend Melissa's two little girls are 4.5 and 2 respectively
They are both going through a transitional stage as parents right now
the place where you want your child to thrive and grow but still remain your 'little one'
 where they are so excited about exploring their dreams
exerting their independence and
quite literally growing up before your very eyes.
It can be very hard to take in.

Anyway -these posts got me to thinking.
My little girl is going to be 8 next weekend.
All I can do is shake my head.
I remember when I first caught a glimpse of the little "Peanut" in a very grainy ultrasound
and when I held her for the first time, how she smelled.
I also remember when I turned 8.
It seems like that was just yesterday too.
 I'm really enjoying the stage Sweet Pea is in right now.
It seems like we have so much more to do but she's also so much more participatory in her life.
I was listening to her dad quiz her on her geography test and thought about
how fast this time has really gone.
the one thing we never seem to have enough of
but usually wish for to pass quickly.
I have been learning the importance of time already this year.
I certainly wish that I'd had more time with my grandmother
It's almost time for the wedding =) 
Time is of the essence and in short supply.
It seems we take the time we have for granted
and don't really spend it doing the things that make us happy or serve a purpose.

I'm working hard to change that.
Lately I have been so focused on what is coming that I haven't really seen/noticed what is here.
right now. In this moment.
I desperately want to be better at managing my time.
Doing the things that feed my spirit, and lift my soul.
Things that make me laugh out loud.
Hanging out with girlfriends,
coloring and creating with Sweet Pea,
cuddling with Babe,
listening to my Father,
chatting with my brother,
talking to my mother
reading a good book.
So I'm making a concerted effort to FOCUS on this time.
Right now.

I don't want my little girl to grow up and look back and say -
"Wow. I had a great childhood but I wish my mom had spent more time with me".
And I don't want my (future) husband to say:
"She was a great friend/fiance/wife but I wish we'd had more time alone'
So if you call me and I don't pick up -
Don't take it personal..........
I'm spending time with my Sweet Pea and my Babe
Getting in it while I can and while they have time for ME!


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