back to work I go?
I have posted before how I am looking for a job.
I have been for some time
And as the summer draws to a close and I am STILL looking
Am I supposed to go back to work?
Truth be told, I have thoroughly enjoyed having the last year to be "just a mom"
or JAM as my friend Rachel likes to refer to it. :)
And a housewife.
Yes I was in school for 9 months working my toukass (sp?) off
but at the end of the day,
I was just Sweet Pea's mom - who helped out in the class room and read with the kids
I was able to focus more on my family
We have enjoyed more dinners
playdates and baked goods
in the last year than I ever thought possible
I enjoyed working.
but it was STRESSFUL
not that there's no stress in my "mom job"
because there is, the laundry won't wash & fold itself
there is no chef to prepare a homecooked meal
and there certainly isn't a maid to clean up after it all
(boy but a woman can dream can't she?)
But really its all for my family so I don't mind so much.
I worked for 3.5 years full time since having Sweet Pea.
I stayed home from infancy until she was about two, realized we both needed a change in environment
landed a job and enrolled her in pre-school/day care
It was hard.
I wasn't very much fun or attentive
I was tired all the time when we got home and we never spent any real time together
So when I decided to quit my job and go back to school
(another monumental life change)
I immediately assumed I would get bored with it and want to rush back into the work force
but I didn't.
And now I'm torn.
Financially, it would be very beneficial for me to work.
And its not for a lack of trying that I'm not.
I just haven't found the job for me.
With that said.......
I really love and enjoy being a makeup artist.
I have a flexible schedule and can pretty much do my job anywhere
I really want to work on MY business rather than work for someone else but it just doesn't seem possible right now.
So I am still in limbo
do I go back and work "for the man"?
or do I stay home and figure out a way to grow my business into something bigger and better?
I know that in order to do that I would need to take a few more classes and brush up on my technique for sure.
but then comes the issue of paying for said classes.
what's a mother to do?
no really, anyone at all?