WARNING: this is a venting post!!!
after several conversations with a variety of both friends and family over the last few weeks I'm seeing a pattern and this has been on my mind.
I'm one of those people who is a firm believer in "letting go" and just moving on.
from any situation.
but lately i've noticed, i'm having a hard time with this.
It seems that the "injustices" that I have observed, and experienced are at the forefront of my mind and I just can't seem to move past it.
This bothers me.
We are not supposed to hold onto our anger as it will fester in our hearts and minds and usually manifests itself in other ways.
And I'm not ANRGY, per se, more than I am hurt and confused.
I'm always left wondering "why would ______ do/say /act like that?"
Do I really deserve this kind of treatment? The answer is obviously NO.
No one deserves to be treated unfairly but it happens.
I was listening to Nina Simone earlier and one of my favorite songs "Don't let me be misunderstood" came on and it got me to thinking about some things both past and present.
I AM just a girl whose intentions are good - but it seems so often that people misunderstand them and me, even though I pray that this will not be the case.
No one is perfect and we have all done/said things that were maybe not so nice or that maybe even we regret.
We all have skeletons that should someone choose to dig or reveal them we would be mortified at what they might find.
"Let he who is without sin cast the first stone" John 8:7
I tend to think , the past is the past and anything that happened; well thats just water under the bridge.
But how do you let go and move on when it seems others in your life DON'T want to move on?
At what point do you pull them aside and say "hey, I'm not the same person you once knew. whatever it is you have an issue with was in the past. lets just move forward".
Why doe we feel must we judge others?
Do we do it because we want to point out someone else's flaws (real or perceived) before they discover ours?
"How can you say to your brother, 'Brother, let me take the speck out of your eye,' when you yourself fail to see the plank in your own eye? You hypocrite, first take the plank out of your eye, and then you will see clearly to remove the speck from your brother's eye"
And must I ALWAYS be the bigger person?
Because truthfully, somedays, I want to be 15, cop an attitude and start some drama.
but really where is that going to get me?
So I wonder: do you have anyone in your life that you feel has a grudge or some issue with you that they refuse to let go of?
How do you deal with it?